I WANT......I can HAVE

I have been MIA in the blog world, health has kept me from contributing much energy other than family and trying to work as much as I could to keep insurance active and some money coming in. My young daughter has discovered Pinterest....she reads them to me in the car & while surfing the laptop. This is one I just couldn't help but post with a small update, because it tells exactly how I feel on most days.
Brain scan coming soon, I am worried that I will lose my driving privileges, low blood pressure has been discovered to be the culprit on several of the delays for surgery. I just want to get on with it, mentally I have prepared for surgery but physically I am not quite there.
I AM WEAK BUT I AM STRONG HAS BEEN THE FORCE THAT HAS GOT ME OUT OF BED AND TO THE OFFICE (actually alot of help from the Lord HE deserves the glory for my being). DEPRESSION HAS BEEN MY BEST FRIEND FOR FAR TO LONG NOT SURE WHY I KEEP FALLING FOR ITS LIES, BUT I AM READY TO BREAK FREE AND JUST BE ME AGAIN. EVEN IF I GET TO DO IT FOR ONLY A SHORT TIME HERE ON EARTH.
Thank you Beth for your wonderful cards and prayers!!! Thank you Lily for checking in on me from across the pond you are so dear. My blog friends who e-mail me & have not forgotten me THANK YOU so so much YOU ALL have no idea what it means to hear personally of the caring.
LOVE & BLESSINGS TO ALL WHO STOP BY.......<3