I WANT......I can HAVE

I have been MIA in the blog world, health has kept me from contributing much energy other than family and trying to work as much as I could to keep insurance active and some money coming in. My young daughter has discovered Pinterest....she reads them to me in the car & while surfing the laptop. This is one I just couldn't help but post with a small update, because it tells exactly how I feel on most days.
Brain scan coming soon, I am worried that I will lose my driving privileges, low blood pressure has been discovered to be the culprit on several of the delays for surgery. I just want to get on with it, mentally I have prepared for surgery but physically I am not quite there.
I AM WEAK BUT I AM STRONG HAS BEEN THE FORCE THAT HAS GOT ME OUT OF BED AND TO THE OFFICE (actually alot of help from the Lord HE deserves the glory for my being). DEPRESSION HAS BEEN MY BEST FRIEND FOR FAR TO LONG NOT SURE WHY I KEEP FALLING FOR ITS LIES, BUT I AM READY TO BREAK FREE AND JUST BE ME AGAIN. EVEN IF I GET TO DO IT FOR ONLY A SHORT TIME HERE ON EARTH.
Thank you Beth for your wonderful cards and prayers!!! Thank you Lily for checking in on me from across the pond you are so dear. My blog friends who e-mail me & have not forgotten me THANK YOU so so much YOU ALL have no idea what it means to hear personally of the caring.
LOVE & BLESSINGS TO ALL WHO STOP BY.......<3

I AM

LIFE IS CONSTANTLY KICKING MY BUTT, BUT ....I AM MORE THAN ANYONE OR CANCER KNOWS. THE LORDS BLESSINGS ON ME AND MY FAMILY ARE SO VERY MANY.

WHISPERS~THANX

I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR SO MANY OF YOU WHO HAVE E-MAILED ME & PRAYED WITH ME. I REALLY MISS BLOGGING AND ALL OF YOU. I JUST REALIZED THE A-Z CHALLENGE IS GOING ON & WELL I WON'T BE DOING IT THIS YEAR OR EVEN ATTEMPTING TO JUMP IN. BUT THAT IS OKAY I WILL JUST SAY TO ALL YOU BRAVE SOULS ......BRAVO!!!  THE FEW I HAVE READ ARE OF COURSE SO CREATIVE.....GO BLOG BUDDIES GO!!!

SOMEBODY'S ANGEL

MY BLOG FRIENDS ARE TRUE ANGELS.......

PLEASE SEND PRAYERS FOR MY SISTER-IN-LAW, MICHAELLE,  SHE NOW BATTLING A TUMOR IN HER BRAIN AS WELL AS THE LUNG CANCER, SHE NEEDS ALL THE ANGELS HELP SHE CAN GET ALONG WITH MY BROTHER KURT. THEIR WHOLE FAMILY NEEDS TO FEEL LOVE & PRAYERS DURING THIS FIGHT.

SIX WORD SATURDAY

MY SWS.........

WISHING EVERYONE A VERY HAPPY SATURDAY!


Want to play along? All that's necessary to participate is to describe your life (or something) in a phrase using just six words. For more information, try clicking here. Feel free to explain or not explain. Add an image, a video, a song, nothing. I love seeing what everyone does with their entries.

Each week (probably on Sunday or Monday), I use random.org to select a bunch of entries to visit.  Or I visit everyone. Or even numbered entries. Or odd numbered entries. Or multiples of three. Depends on what's going on that week.  In addition, please visit the person ahead of you on the list (or visit everyone if you like!). That way everyone receives at least one visit!

If you play along in your blog, please add a link to the Mr. Linky. I appreciate a link back (shiny code below if you like!). Otherwise, you're welcome to leave your six words in this post as a comment.

Please be sure to link either to your main page or (preferably) directly to the 6WS post. Links to blogs that do not contain a 6WS entry will be removed (sorry, just the button in the sidebar doesn't count as participating). 



I AM HEADING OUT OF TOWN TO VISIT FAMILY SO I WILL NOT BE VISITING BLOGS THIS WEEKEND,
BUT WILL BE STOPPING IN TO SEE WHAT YOU ALL HAVE BEEN UP TO MONDAY.
   LOVE...HUGS...BLESSINGS.....EVERYONE!!

Follow friday #95

Welcome to the 95th weekly Follow Friday Four Fill-in Fun Blog Hop!

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Each week, I plan on listing four statements with a blank for you to fill in on your own blogs. If you want to join the fun and come up with four fill in’s of your own, please email them to me at Hilary(at)feelingbeachie(dot)com. If I use them, I will add you as co-host to the hop! This week’s co-host is Wayne from Touristic – he came up with the last two statements!
I would LOVE it if you could please help me spread the word about this hop…. So, please tweet, FaceBook share, and add the linky to your post…
This week’s statements:
1. I am a ____
2. Sometimes I don’t know when to ____
1. My two favorite words lately are ___________ and ____________
2. I would like ____________ if ____________ didn’t happen
 ANSWERS:
1. I am a heart on my sleeve kind a person, it doesn't work so well for me either I need to stop caring so much.
2. Sometimes I don't know when to just say no, I can't do everything.
3. My two favorite words lately are seriously and freakin (yes I know what freakin really means but technically I am not dropping the F-bomb)
4. I would like winter days alot more if wrecking my car on icy roads didn't happen. (sorry for still whinning about this but driving is such a huge part of life & I am a struggling to get over being scared of the icy roads I am ready for spring thaw).

Pondering with a Purpose~Love thyself

Pondering with a Purpose - Love thyself?

Welcome to Pondering with a Purpose -

 This is my weekly hop where I post a prompt and you get to write to it on your - come back here and add it to my linky and then we all get to go read what you wrote!

I started Pondering with a Purpose because -- simply put -- I am a writer - - that is what I do (I just can't help myself)! And although I love following all the hops, I wanted to see if I could bring out some creativity in not only myself, but some of my blogger friends as well.

The rules are really easy:

1. Grab the Pondering with a Purpose Badge (in my sidebar)

2. Look at the week's prompt

3. Post something on your blog that relates to the prompt - it can be a story, a poem, a picture -- anything you want it to be.

4. Come back here and add the URL from your post to the linky list below.

5. Go check out the other bloggers who have added their links to the list.

6. AND most of all.... Have fun!

This Week's prompt: Love thyself

Do you love yourself?

To love ones self is probably a double edge sword for some. To often from the outside it looks as if one is vain or so into themselves they only think of themselves, but do not mix that up with being self-centered or selfish. When we spend money on ourselves because we deserve it or it makes us feel better about ourselves somehow is that because we love ourselves and deserving of a little treat in the way of a new handbag or shoes? No!!!  Many people get this concept confused... to love thyself in my opinion,  is to care enough about ourselves that we feel and give love openly. We care for ourselves not in material ways but in emotional ways.

as a child of severe abuse, bounced around in foster care in my teens.  I had a hard time with self love for ME. I know what rejection feels like in the worst way but for me to reject myself would be even worst.

          I do have love for myself an over abundance of it because somebody has to love me.....if not me then who??

            LOVE THYSELF.