Pondering with a Purpose~Love thyself

Pondering with a Purpose - Love thyself?

Welcome to Pondering with a Purpose -

 This is my weekly hop where I post a prompt and you get to write to it on your - come back here and add it to my linky and then we all get to go read what you wrote!

I started Pondering with a Purpose because -- simply put -- I am a writer - - that is what I do (I just can't help myself)! And although I love following all the hops, I wanted to see if I could bring out some creativity in not only myself, but some of my blogger friends as well.

The rules are really easy:

1. Grab the Pondering with a Purpose Badge (in my sidebar)

2. Look at the week's prompt

3. Post something on your blog that relates to the prompt - it can be a story, a poem, a picture -- anything you want it to be.

4. Come back here and add the URL from your post to the linky list below.

5. Go check out the other bloggers who have added their links to the list.

6. AND most of all.... Have fun!

This Week's prompt: Love thyself

Do you love yourself?

To love ones self is probably a double edge sword for some. To often from the outside it looks as if one is vain or so into themselves they only think of themselves, but do not mix that up with being self-centered or selfish. When we spend money on ourselves because we deserve it or it makes us feel better about ourselves somehow is that because we love ourselves and deserving of a little treat in the way of a new handbag or shoes? No!!!  Many people get this concept confused... to love thyself in my opinion,  is to care enough about ourselves that we feel and give love openly. We care for ourselves not in material ways but in emotional ways.

as a child of severe abuse, bounced around in foster care in my teens.  I had a hard time with self love for ME. I know what rejection feels like in the worst way but for me to reject myself would be even worst.

          I do have love for myself an over abundance of it because somebody has to love me.....if not me then who??

            LOVE THYSELF.

Pondering with a Purpose~Time

Pondering with a Purpose - Time flies

Welcome to Pondering with a Purpose -

 This is Brenda's weekly hop where she posts a prompt and you get to write to it on your - come back here and add it to her linky and then we all get to go read what you wrote!

She started Pondering with a Purpose because -- simply put -- Sh's a writer - - that is what she does ! And although I love following all the hops, I wanted to see if I could bring out some creativity in not only myself, but some of my blogger friends as well.

The rules are really easy:

1. Grab the Pondering with a Purpose Badge 

2. Look at the week's prompt

3. Post something on your blog that relates to the prompt - it can be a story, a poem, a picture -- anything you want it to be.

4. Come back here and add the URL from your post to the linky list below.

5. Go check out the other bloggers who have added their links to the list.

6. AND most of all.... Have fun!

This Week's prompt: time

Do you seem to think that time is flying by? Obviously when we are the middle of a crisis or a tough situation it seems to be creeping and crawling.... that's not what I'm talking about... I'm talking about time as a whole...

I am one of the worst when it comes to time. I was always late, always setting the time ahead 10 minutes to help me get better

but I knew the clock was 10 minutes a head and I still accounted

that extra time in and arrived late.

My life changed when I got the business I had to be an example

and I had many people depending on my time, all of a sudden, it

caused great stress, but I did get better about managing time and

 being on time.

Time is once again knocking on my door making me want to just 

take the batteries out to stop it from clicking away. Where does the time go? why does it have to sneak up on me so suddenly? How did 

I lose it?

When my husband worked construction he constantly said no to people asking favors, I was confused....why would you say no to so-so who asked you to help him with something? Hubs would say flatly my time isn't free, i have a family and they need me on my time off  not a bunch of young guys sitting around a side job drinking beer expecting me, the old dude, to show them how to do it while they watched....simple they couldn't afford what I charge for my time if it takes me away from my family. Now a bon-a-fide favor totally different.

Time is chasing me around the house on a regular bases, sometimes with my pants down sometimes with them up but I feel the pressure of time running out for me daily and I want to scrunch and scramble to do so many things in quickly so I am on a time roller coaster that I am not sure how long I will be riding but as I am I know I have lots of you riding it with me so I am not afraid.

Pondering with a Purpose~Memories

"/>The rules are really easy:

1. Grab the Pondering with a Purpose Badge 

2. Look at the week's prompt

3. Post something on your blog that relates to the prompt - it can be a story, a poem, a picture -- anything you want it to be.

4. Come back here and add the URL from your post to the linky list below.

5. Go check out the other bloggers who have added their links to the list.

6. AND most of all.... Have fun!

This Week's prompt: Memories

Do you have any memories that would be fascinating for someone else to read about in one hundred years? or even ten?

My memories are strong. I am 47 years old and I can still picture the house we lived in when I was 4 years old. I can even go back to being 2 but those are somewhat spotty. I can still remember the sound of my moms thick accent voice as she tried to pronounce certain words in English. My children will say they do not remember things when they were little and I know that was my fault they erased those thoughts and images. But I know they were later replaced with good memories just like they did for me, they are my happy thought/memory.

 

I do feel like I have a memory like an elephant, it has been said to me by numerous friends and family, but what does that saying really mean? Elephants make a journey that even in impossible conditions they do not forget how to get there and I know my story is that like the elephants it will be fascinating and it will be remembered at least by me.

Pondering ~In-Laws

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The rules are really easy:

1. Grab the Pondering with a Purpose Badge (in my sidebar)

2. Look at the week's prompt

3. Post something on your blog that relates to the prompt - it can be a story, a poem, a picture -- anything you want it to be.

4. Come back here and add the URL from your post to the linky list below.

5. Go check out the other bloggers who have added their links to the list.

6. AND most of all.... Have fun!

This Week's prompt: In-Laws

Do you love your in-laws? Do your in-laws love you?
As the holidays approach I realize this is a great thing to talk about... we all have them... either Mothers or Fathers in Law, Sisters or Brothers in Law, Sons or Daughters in law.... no matter how isolated we are .... unless we are only children who never married ... there is an in-law in your life! So tell me....  do you love them and do they love you back?

Holy Merry Christmas Brenda this is a whopper!!! I am going to skip MIL or FIL well actually my FIL is pro me & I do believe he loves me for what I have done for his son & for the hard worker I am, plus he might not tell me but he does tell his son I am quite the looker...no I didn't say hooker that would be his sons term for me plus other extremely mean things which brings me to my current BIL from my husband....HE HATES Me absolutely HATES ( he is a women hater) he has voiced numerous times which got back to us that I tore his family apart. It took me 6 years of abusive remarks from him at family gatherings that when I asked to be stood up for I was told to ignore him that was just the way he was and it was perfectly fine in his mothers home to disrespect me in front of everyone, I was suppose to just take it. We have only attend 2 current events with him present in the last 7 yrs.  I am sorry but if one of my sons was talking to a guest in my home the way he did they would be told to leave and possibly slap in the face.
I adore, admire, & praise the Lord for my SIL (my youngest bro wife) what she has had to go thru in our family woowee I would have ran for the hills, my mom is a horrible person but my SIL still opens her home to her as stressful as going thru a hurricane during the visits she does it, might not like it, but she does it. 
oh before I go to far my oldest sister.... her husband is a pretty nice guy, I like him alot!!! I have no idea his opinion of me yep 29 yrs & I am not sure yikes huh? It is hard being the black sheep in the family. BUT his mom my sisters MIL is the BEST MIL I have EVER seen or heard of I LOVE her & am so glad my sister has her (again because our mom was a nightmare) funny thing I knew my sisters MIL years before she did, it was thru foster families I met her & she worked at the jr high I was going to and then few yrs. later my sister transferred colleges to the town I was living in and met her future husband in college, small world.

 My son-in-law.... I treat with love & respect and do not over step in their relationship, I try to see both sides and I think because of that he loves me. I know what it is like to have an in law that no matter what??? they just do not like you, so I say if it isn't me then it is YOU and you can either get over yourself or we can just not sit next to each other at the family event oh and PLEASE do not ever feel the need to pretend because I am NOT into fake if you do not like me so be it but do not pour it on for the others I don't need that and I WILL not do it in return if I do not like you then I do not pretend to. My mom always said when we were growing up if so-& so thinks I am going to eat her food & sit in her home while she bad mouths me she can think again!!! I was not raised to turn the other cheek wish I could but some things are hard to change and for some reason that one made sense....

Pondering with a Purpose~Independent

Welcome to Pondering with a Purpose -

 This is my weekly hop where Brenda posts a prompt and you get to write to it on your - then we all get to go read what you wrote!

Brenda started Pondering with a Purpose because -- simply put -- She is a writer - - that is what she does! And although I love following all the hops, I wanted to see if I could bring out some creativity in not only myself, but some of my blogger friends as well.

The rules are really easy:

1. Grab the Pondering with a Purpose Badge (in my sidebar)

2. Look at the week's prompt

3. Post something on your blog that relates to the prompt - it can be a story, a poem, a picture -- anything you want it to be.

4. Come back here and add the URL from your post to the linky list below.

5. Go check out the other bloggers who have added their links to the list.

6. AND most of all.... Have fun!

This Week's prompt: Independence

With everything un-raveling in my life right now I think how lucky I am to be independent. My husband encourages me to go and do things and even when I make a mess of stuff he supports me in a way where I do not feel that I am a mess. I can share life with him but I can also go out into the big world and be strong alone. It is a good feeling knowing that I can do it but I do not have to.
With having to change my blog I felt the old familiar tug of lack of independence from fear....fear of ???  that fear and deep desire to be private and hidden so I could express myself openly on here was taken from me and I felt again this week... frozen and angry of the ability of someone else's ability to take away my independence but REALLY they didn't I just thought they did for a moment...I am still me and I am still standing and if I have to change and re-arrange this blog thing then I will because the healing started to take hold for the first time and stick when I was able to connect with others who understood and survived LIFE!!! I AM INDEPENDENT AND I SURVIVED THE PAST AND I WILL CONTINUE TO MOVE FORWARD WITH HEALING.