Get Drunk?? WTH???

I do not drink very often, my husband hasn't drank in years, mostly because of the medications he takes but also he never was much of a drinker. He did like a cold beer in the summer time but even if he bought a six pack he rarely finished the whole thing. When he did drink he was happy & fun never mean or aggressive.  I liked that about him especially sense my 1st husband was an alcoholic & verbally abusive ( he quit after we divorced)  my step-dad was a mean drunk, physically abusive (I can not nicely say he was an alcoholic he was a drunk) so alcohol makes me nervous in men. In my twenties I bartended shocking yes but the money was good and it allowed me to work nights and be home with the kids during the day, but I DID NOT drink while working or after!! My boss liked that about me & I was a rare employee in that environment. I can enjoy life without adding alcohol. I do not need to have a few drinks to get out on the dance floor and boogie my butt off. I like to go to the clubs & dance, but I can go without drinking and have fun, YES I make an excellent sober driver. I don't need to feel tipsy to have the nerve to do anything... I have that nerve naturally!! yep I am secure like that....go ahead hate me now LOL

So when the Dr. told me Friday at my appt. to go home and have a few drinks and relax, I was stunned on what to drink, as a mixologists a zillion drinks roll thru my head??? I have a bottle of good wine at home. I keep a favorite in the fridge (it was bought 2 yrs. ago). But wine just didn't sound good, we have a super storm blowing right now so I kept thinking maybe a hot drink..... hot toddies, hot butter rums, hot chocolate with rum or peppermint schnapps eww no peppermint, Baileys & coffee?? I am cruising the alcohol isle in Raileys trying to get a feel of what would be delicious .... how about um....  no ....yuck.....then I got a glance of the items of booze on sale,  I see the sales tag of an old favorite that I enjoyed back in the day when we would go out and I didn't really feel like a drink just something to sip yes people there is sipping drinks!!! BUTTERSCOTCH schnapps yummy the perfect sipper over crushed ice YUM!! and then it also works in the hot chocolate again YUM.

As I pull up to the house, pouring rain, running for the steps and the cover of the porch, 

the hubs yells is there groceries?? 

Yes.... just a few bags do you got them?? 

He does, and then he asks the usual...did you get ice cream? whats for dinner? how did your appt.

go, what did the Dr. say, how are you feeling??

Yes I got ice cream and the creamer for the tea, I have those pork roast in the crock pot

you have been smelling all day. DUH that's whats for dinner.

The Dr. said for me to go home and get drunk!!

The Hubs....what ?? no he did not!! There is no way the Dr. said for you to get drunk?!?

Yes he did....... YES HE DID.......okay the stares got to me, 

so this is what the Dr. suggested (said.... suggested... geez)

I am knotted up and not sleeping well again, the news of this weeks tests have me wondering & worried, and just exhausted!! I am so tired of being tired.

The Holidays leave me a mess of a stress and never wearing a cute dress!! LOL 

ugh I just struggle during the Holidays.

The Dr. and I are talking about all this stuff and he looks at me and says ....I think you should go home have a drink , glass of wine, and relax!!! Allow yourself to just soak in a hot tub with a drink and relax!! So I bought me a bottle of some sipping booze had 2 glasses, sat in the hot tub while it poured rained and the wind blew and TRIED to relax.......it lasted about 2 hours.......that's a start..... 2 hours are better than  none.......

so if you see me out on the dance floor having fun just know it doesn't mean I am drunk  yep yep whoop whoop I am a crazy girl getting my groove on!!!